Breaking Dawn

"These are the moments I thank God that I'm alive,
These are the moments I'll remember all my life,
I found all I've waited for,
And I could not ask for more"

(Edwin McCain - I Could Not Ask For More)

Yesterday was the two year anniversary of me and Russ' first date and tonight is the one month anniversary of us being a couple. It feels like a whole eternity since that first date and yet I can still remember it like it was yesterday. The irony is that both dates took place at a wedding reception held at the same chapel, what are the odds of that right?

Well anyway, I've been lucky enough to meet Grandma and Grandpa Peterson on Friday, and spent nearly all day with the Peterson family (Russ' mom's parents, brothers, sisters, nieces etc.) along with Russ' family (the Bybee's) on Sunday. I loved everyone that I was able to talk with, I don't know how such a large family could be so loving and spiritual, a definite polar opposite of my own family. Don't get me wrong I love most of my family and not everyone is walking down a shady road, but for an entire family to get along so well the way that Russ' does is just amazing to behold! I've become fond of his Grandparents in particular so I've already taken to calling them grandma and grandpa. Normally I don't like referring to other people's family as my own but it doesn't feel awkward this time.

As of two weeks ago Russ and I have taken to saying "I love you" to each other, I was the first to say it but I knew that if I did things wouldn't take a turn for the worst for us. Even though I've felt Russ' love for me, it was incredibly exhilarating to hear those words come out of his smiling lips and know that he meant it too. I can't even begin to describe where we are now in regards to how we feel about each other, all I know is that the sound of someone's heart beat has never meant so much to me before as his does now... Like a heroin addict needs a hit, I need to feel his hand in mine whenever we're together because whenever we're apart I can't focus on anything other than the next time I'll get to see him. He is absolutely perfect in every way, I've said it before and I'll say it again, I don't know how I ever lived without Russ. I don't know how I could have ever dated any one else when he was always right there all along, like the old adage goes "what you're looking for is right before your eyes" or something like that... It boggles my mind to think that I've gone through so many failed relationships when the one I needed to be with was always ready and willing.

Well at least I'm where I should be now.

Sorry for the brief update, I'm doing all of this last minute, hopefully I'll get more time later this week.

Loves,